Yesterday, I mentioned that I was doing a juice fast for Thanksgiving. I thought I might continue it for a second day, but I decided to limit it to 24 hours.
Two really interesting things happened during the fast:
1) I had no waves of panic at all. None.
2) I felt physically and mentally fantastic. Alert, energetic, excited about life.
I was really surprised at both of these results, mostly because I thought the opposite would happen: that I’d feel nervous because I wasn’t eating, and that I’d feel tired and worn out.
What’s the lesson for me here? First, I think I need to add more juice to my regular diet, perhaps in place of a meal or two each day. And second, that the focus on myself, on the essentials, may have played a role in cutting down the anxiety.
Today, I started eating again. And guess what? I’ve had two minor waves of panic, and I’ve felt kind of lethargic. The thing is, I don’t eat badly at all. Here’s what I’ve eaten so far today:
- plain yogurt
- a large glass of freshly made orange/carrot/apple juice (contained 2 oranges, several baby carrots and half an apple)
- a small serving of pasta with a teaspoon of butter and a tablespoon (not even, really) of Parmesan cheese
- an apple
- a small scoop of sorbet
- a piece of whole wheat bread with peanut butter
- a handful of mixed nuts
- water and decaf tea
Not exactly junk food, right?
I believe my feelings of well-being yesterday had more to do with the fact that I took an entire day to focus on myself, in the most elemental sense. Maybe I need to do it more often to keep my PTSD in check, because lately it’s been pretty difficult to manage.
I may have found a way to fight back against PTSD and anxiety. I’ll keep you posted.