Planning 2014

sunsetI know that 2014 is going to be an amazing year for me. Here’s what I have planned:

– Finish writing the next 3 short stories in my Kindle series (by April)

– Take all those short stories — 8 total — and turn them into a novel (finish by the end of the year)

– Write 3 nonfiction books for Kindle

– Officially launch a video-creation business (happening in January — yay!); have already started this, so I just need to do a couple of small things to the website and it’s ready to go

– Start offering free marketing classes online (happening in January)

– Launch a rather different type of copywriting business (happening in February)

– Travel

– Pay off my credit card debt

– Continue to practice mindfulness and tapping

Exciting times for me. How about you?

Wow. Just wow.

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photo by me

In yesterday’s post, I said that I had made a financial mistake that really caused me a lot of personal suffering. It wasn’t so much the amount of money, it was more that I simply should have known better.

Last evening, my husband (who, by the way, is making an amazing recovery from depression) had to work late. So I had some time to myself to reflect on what I had done and why I had done it.

I took the advice of Eckhart Tolle and also applied the tapping/EFT (emotional freedom) techniques. I accepted the situation totally. I accepted myself totally, with all the flaws that brought me to that point in time. I did the tapping exercises out loud: “Even though I’m feeling anguished over this, I completely and totally accept myself.”

I then spent some time in meditation, which I just started doing daily this week.

After that, it was as if something shifted completely. I no longer felt any pain or suffering over what had happened. In fact, I saw it as a blessing. It was a way of waking me up to how much suffering I cause myself, needlessly.

I then did some work on my new business that I’ve started and went to bed.

For the first time in years, literally, I slept all the way through until my alarm went off at 6 am. I didn’t wake up once. I don’t even think I stirred much.

That was all the evidence I needed to know that I’m on the right path. I’m choosing to be present, to live “in the now,” to not concern myself with what is past or what might happen in the future. I’ll take steps I need to take to change my life situation and stabilize it. But I can do that without worry or anxiety. Being present allows me to do that; any other choice does not.

Today, as I’ve gone through the day I’ve done several minutes of meditation — even on the subway when I guy walked on the train without pants (don’t ask).

I’ve felt super creative and plan to work on my next fiction story this weekend as well as continue doing some work on my business; I’m designing an online class, which I’ll launch in October.

And then, I got a bit of a financial reprieve: with something I paid for but really didn’t want, I was able to recoup about 90 percent of what I spent basically by hounding this particular company for a refund. I have one other item like that — the jury’s still out on whether I’ll get a refund, but if I don’t, I don’t. It was a huge lesson to me, all of this. One that taught me that I have the power within to end my own suffering.

My PTSD symptoms are almost completely gone. The two that are left I will continue to address as the need arises.

Who knew that the simple act of tapping on one’s head, face, etc. and reading a couple of books by Eckhart Tolle could be so life changing? Wow.