I’ve gone through periods where I’ve done OK, and I remember one night a few months ago where I slept better than I ever had before. It was after a day of fully forgiving myself for making a mistake and meditating on the beauty of who I am.
It’s time for me to do that again.
The past few weeks, ever since I got back from a vacation, I haven’t slept well at all. I have trouble falling asleep and staying asleep, to the point where I think I’m only getting maybe four hours of sleep a night. I wake up several times each night without really knowing why.
All day, no matter what I do, I feel terrible.
My remedy starts this evening, because I know this situation is harmful to me. Before I go to bed, I am going to spend 15 minutes meditating on forgiving myself and appreciating the beautiful soul that lives inside me. I plan to do this every night for the next two weeks and see what happens.
It’s been difficult to ignore all the firestorm with Woody Allen and Dylan Farrow. Allen issued his statement, and then Dylan refuted it (brilliantly, I might add).
Today, I was inspired to create an image to share on my real Facebook page — using my real name. The image you see here is what I posted today (except I’ve blocked my name to publish it here).
And guess what happened?
Nothing. No one said anything. The only person who “liked” it was my husband.
Maybe no one saw it. Maybe people saw it and didn’t know what to do. Maybe they just don’t care.
I’ll post it again in a few days and see what happens. But I have to say, with all the energy and courage it took for me to put that out there — almost no one knows about my past — it was pretty anticlimactic to hear not a peep.
Wow, is all I can say. I have been a Woody Allen fan most of my life, but I will never see another one of his movies. I even own several of them on DVD, and they’re going into the trash today.
My daughter could have written this letter, penned by Dylan Farrow. Her descriptions of abuse by her adoptive father, Woody Allen, are eerily similar to what my own daughter described about her (biological) father.
I don’t have much else to say about this, except that I know Dylan is telling the truth, just as I knew my daughter was telling the truth. It’s easier for society to blame the victim than to accept such a horrible reality and then be forced to deal with it.
So what will happen next? Will the actors who have worked with Woody Allen — especially Diane Keaton, Scarlett Johansson, Cate Blanchett and others — speak out publicly against him and in support of Dylan?
I heard Diane Keaton speak a couple of years ago when she released her memoir. She was an amazingly honest woman — answered every single question the audience posed, including some embarrassing ones. She didn’t care; she said, “I’ll tell you anything you want to know.”
I certainly hope she and others in the Hollywood community show their contempt for Allen. And to those who say, “We don’t know what really happened”? I say, Yes, we do. Just read Dylan’s letter, and you’ll know the truth.