Final trauma therapy session

Can I just say that I had the best trauma therapist who ever lived? Kris, you are a genius.

So kind, patient, knowledgeable and insightful. You are an inspiration to me. Thank you for all you have done for me and will continue to do by your presence in my heart and mind.

It was an amazing (and sometimes excruciatingly difficult, but well worth it!) experience.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Jumping off into … what?

Today at the gym, I was watching a woman on TV participate in a trapeze class. She was harnessed in, no risk of hurting herself. And she had to jump off the small ledge and swing, holding onto the trapeze.

She was terrified.

It took lots and lots of coaching for her to make the leap. But it was symbolic for her, because apparently she was about to make a big career move and needed a push.

That’s what I need.

I need to take a symbolic leap.

I’m just not sure what I’m jumping into.

I’ll keep you posted on what that symbolic leap will be. Feel free to comment and give me some ideas!

PTSD & women’s — my — health

PTSD has been shown to provoke an immune response in women. What does that mean?

I means that if you have experienced trauma and the resulting symptoms of PTSD, you are more likely to suffer from diseases that result from inflammation: heart disease and arthritis, for example.

I have also read that PTSD sufferers have higher rates of cancer and premature aging.

I can definitely vouch for the premature aging part, in that I have essential tremor (and have had it since I was in my mid-30s) and have also had severe problems with my spine. When I was in my 30s, a neurosurgeon told me my spine looked about 20 years older than that via the MRI. When I was diagnosed with essential tremor, I was told I had “early onset” — which apparently is actually better, in some ways, than getting it when you’re older. The expert I met with told me that early-onset ET is less severe and gets worse much more slowly than if you get it when you are a senior citizen.

So I suppose that’s positive? I have to look on the bright side …

The other bright side for me is that, for whatever reason (genes? general emotional makeup?), I haven’t shown the signs of PTSD on the outside. While I may not be as pretty as I was 25 years ago, I still look young for my age.

Another positive note in the rather bleak PTSD landscape.

What’s the moral here? The effects of domestic violence are so vast, most people have no idea the damage done to individuals and our society, as a whole.